Ellenrahc

me joseph neil and erica had a double date today :] we all watched obsessed. i liked it. joseph was scared. that little pussy ;P hahaha. im kidding. after, we just ate at in n out and talked. cute day!

after school me bianca and danmark went to my house real quick to drop off my crap then we went to in n out. danmark paid<3 haha. on our way back to the school i got a call from joseph asking to go to mcdonalds.. so yeah we all went there. me and joseph talked and yeah. he let literally EVERYTHING out. after, we went to the volleyball tournament and it was alright. me and abby were doing the ugliest twlight reinactments in the foy-yay. however its called. me trisha and bianca got bored so we just went to biancas and hung out there till 7 then picked up joseph and neil at the movies. joseph actually went ice skating with me! he was actually willing to leave his friends and be with me. at first i didnt really want him to go cause i thought i’d have to be with him the whole time and not be able to hang out with everyone.. but i really enjoyed skating with him. it was so cute! and he didnt act weird around my friends so it was all good. mm, oh ex boyfriend<3

im really happy with how things are right now. school is great, friends are great, me and joseph are great.. sex is great. hahah. im kidding! but forreal everything is just going so well. school has been really easy. maybe cause its been 2 days since we came back from spring break .. but oh well, i get all my classes! me and joseph have been really good. we seem much happier now. <3

yesterday was the last day to actually hang out before we go back to school. i woke up to a text saying that theres a barbeque at biancas house. so yeah, around 3ish i picked up jen then picked up trisha then went to yogurt world. then on our way to biancas we saw gabi walking so i stopped my car and picked his arab ass up. (BTW, NIGGA CAN JERK hahaha) anyways, when we got to bianca it was just us for a little then ameer carlos and andrew came. then i left with jen and trish to pick up sam then went to vons to get some buns. went back to biancas and just hung out and jerked. haha. forreal though, i think gabi can jerk better than me. he was on the wall and everything! hahah. erica christine michelle camille and bobby came.. same with everyone else. then we just danced, took pictures, ate hot dogs, and huge sausages that wouldnt fit in sam’s bun.. but of course fit into mine [; bwuaha. okay, anyways.. it was chill. by the end of the night i lost all my energy cause we ended up sitting around the fire listening to depressing songs. haha. around 9ish we went to sams.. then i went home. THE END. goodbye spring break.

today was good friday and i wasnt allowed out. i ended up staying home with my family.. not eating any meat. i watched marley and me then yes man. it was alright. then i read a book. thats how fuckin bored i was. i wanna go out. someone make plans with me tomorrow -__-

i’ll admit, i was pretty bummed about the whole break up thing. but as the days go by i’ve realized that i shouldnt waste my time worrying about it. whatever happens happens. im not gonna sit here and wait for him to text me and complain if he doesnt. im sick of trying to make this work. if he really says he likes me like he says he does.. then he should at least show that he does.. but recently he hasn’t. we’ve had awkward texts and awkward silences when we’re together. i really dont bother to text him anymore as much as i did. im starting to get over this whole thing and starting to enjoy spending time with my friends. i actually really enjoyed this weekend..

saturday - mall w/ bestfriend + bestfriends sister, pho to go, pcn.
sunday - church with bestfriend + jenny, her mama and cousin then pho
monday - little ceasars, my house, biancas house, jerrrrkin.

i really just need to spend time with my friends and have fun without having to have joseph in the back of my mind. he said he wants to hang out with his friends and not have to worry about me .. so i’ll do the same

still no changes! i’ve either gotta suck it up, which i have been doing.. or do something about it. i just don’t know what to do though. FML.

i started my period and have had the best shits in my life<3
school has been a bitch lately and i really don’t like going anymore. im sick of othello and i want it to just go away already. we have an in class essay on it tomorrow and i dont know what the heck im gonna do with that.